ThE cOuNtDoWn

Ten things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1. Thank you so much for being there for me when I needed you the most.

2. Just 8 MORE DAYS! You can do it everything will be ok, PROMISE! I'm here for you!

3. Where have you been my whole life?

4. You are the Best Mommy in the whole world! What would I do with out you!???

5. Thank you for calling this is Allison how may I help you today?

6. You better be good to my best friend or I will kick your trash! BRING IT ON! lol

7. You are all I think about, why can't I get you out of my head as easily as you can to me?

8. I know, I should have come in sooner.

9. Will you please stop texting me, and come pick up your crap.

10. Please COME THE PARTY it will be SO MUCH FUN! PROMISE!!!!

NINE things about yourself:

1. I'm a fiery RED HEAD! GRRRRR

2. I have a temper

3. I'm very ambitious, but lose sight of my goals some times

4. I love being competitive and hate to lose

5. I love to act and be the center of attention

6. I'm a compulsive texter and email er

7. My family and I are VERY close

8. I love being creative and staying busy

9. I love Kissing

EIGHT ways to win my heart:

1. Tall Dark and Handsome

2. FUNNY! If you can make me laugh you have my heart just take it!

3. Someone I can talk too and share anything with

4. Shows me how much they love and care for me

5. Intelligent

6. Honest and respectful

7. Loves life and knows how to have a good time

8. Thoughtful and Romantic

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. What am I going to do with my life?

2. What kingdom will I go to if I die?

3. What am I going to eat, Have I gotten my water and fruit and veg's in?

4. What am I going to wear?

5. I wonder if he is thinking about me as much as I am thinking of him

6. What can I do to keep me busy and my mind off things?

7. Am I going in the right direction?

SIX things you wish you never did:

1. I wish I never kissed on the first date.

2. I wish I never stopped going to school

3. I wish I never broke my leg or dated Ken

4. I wish I never got into debt

5. I wish I never fought with my sister

6. I wish I never cared what people think

FIVE turns off:

1. Doesn't know what they want....

2. Boring and lazy

3. Tight wad

4. Not willing to try something new or be adventures

5. Hypocrite and doesn't keep promises

FOUR turn ons:

1. Humor and Laugh

2. Smile

3. Confidence

4. Goals

THREE smiles that describes your life:

1. :)

2. :*

3. :^)

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Find the love of my life

2. Travel the world

ONE confession:

1. I HATE the feel/look of wet toilet paper. It makes me want to barf!!

These past couple of days I've really thought about things that I want to do with my life and my goals. There are so many that I decided that I really need to make a list. Here is the list that I came up with.

-Skydiving!!! I have to do this, I am going to do this. I have already made arrangements with Sandy Skydiving for October. I was going to surprise someone for their birthday but plans fell through but I still plan on going! I'm so excited! I'll totally post my pictures and video! :)

-Travel Europe! (England, Germany, Iceland, Ireland, Italy, Norway, France, Sweden, Netherlands, etc) I know its so cliche but I really want to go. Its been my dream for awhile and I truly am going to make it a reality. I really would love to go with a friend or husband. But if that isn't an option I'm totally down going by myself. I want to be a WORLD TRAVELER!!!!

-Get a degree. Yes, I've been really thinking about this one for awhile. I didn't think I should get one, because I'm already making more money then people that have a degree. I just didn't see the point. But I have decided that I really need to get my butt in to gear and get a degree. I would love to get a degree in broadcasting and be a radio personality.

-Lose weight. I know every girl says that but its the truth. My whole life I have felt over weight even thought I wasn't. I was very fit all though high school but yet I didn't feel like it. I was so busy with life and swimming morning and night that I didn't really care what I ate or how much. I never understood the natural value to things. But as most of you know I have joined Weight Watchers . I've have lost 15 pounds and I'm very proud of that. I know I'll get were I need to be I just need to be patient.

-Get married in the temple and have a family. Now I know I've told everyone I'm going to live alone with 100 cats. I think that would be fun but...... I think I would opt for a loving husband and babies. I'm totally not looking to get married any time soon. There is so much I want to do with my life. Plus I like being the single, selfish, not tied down friend!

-Become closer with my Heavenly Father. For the past couple of years I feel like I'm not as close with my Heavenly Father as I have been. I know part of me blames it for not feeling like I fit in the family ward or singles ward, its not a good excuse but its how I felt. Now I'm in a NEW wonderful singles ward. It is so much fun and the people there are so warm and welcoming. Its been awhile since I've been excited to attend a NINE O'CLOCK meeting and FHE. But its great and I'm happy!

-5K or Tri- I really would love to run or do a tri antholon. I've wanted to do it for the long time but I've never got the courage to do one by myself. Now I think I have that courage!

-Trying something new

-Get kissed this coming new years

-Make at least $100,000 in a years time

-Get out of debt

-Learn something new

-Preform in front on people to make them laugh

-More Service

-Be more organized

-Be expert on guitar hero

-Have one of my piece in an art show

-Learn how to sing

-Learn how to do a back flip on the ground

-Be on a tv/reality show!

Yes, its over whelming a little bit. But I know I can do these things because its what I want to do. I'm excited because some of these goals are so close and some are so far away. But I know in my life time I can accomplish these! I'm so excited!

Love, what does that word truly mean? Is there really only ONE person out there for you or, is that just an entertainment scam? Can love really over come all obstacles? I've been pondering that all day.....
Part of me really does think it is an entertainment scam playing and making money off of women's heart strings. Another part of me truly hopes that it is out there some where. If not here maybe in the next life.....

Love: represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

(My favorite part of that definition is, "makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states." )

For those of you that know me you know I'm a huge movie and music buff. So I decided to look up movies and songs that relate to this topic. Here is what I came up with.

“I love you without knowing how, why, or even from where.”
Patch Adams

"Your heart is free, have the courage to follow it." -Braveheart

“Kiss me. Kiss me as if it were the last time.” - Casablanca

“I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.”-City Of Angels

"Poetry, beauty, romance, love: these are what we stay alive for." -Dead Poet's Society

"A life without love, is no life at all." - Ever After: A Cinderella Story

“Sometimes I wish I had never met you. Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.” - Good Will Hunting

"You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." -Hook

“All you need is love.” - I Am Sam

Cannonball- Damien Rice (This man knows what love is!)
Vulnerable/Your call- SecondHand Sernade
I melt- Rascal Flats
open arms-journey
I don't want to miss a thing- Aerosmith
love will keep us together-Captian & Tennille
Baby I love your way-Peter Frampton
Total Eclipse of The Heart-Bonnie Tyler
Secret Garden-Bruce Springsteen

There is still so many more movie quotes and songs I could find about love... but I just don't have the energy to keep looking.
I guess the real reason I have this on my mind is because I really do believe I have felt true love. I thought I knew what love felt like until I met this person. The love I felt was unlike anything I have ever felt before. It wasn't like the songs or the movies I've seen or the past loves in my life. Is this kind of love real or all in my head. I don't know.... but all I know is I would feel light headed when we would kiss. I would get butterflies in my stomach when ever I would hear his voice or touch him. I would do anything for this person, even if it hurts me in the process. I guess in a sense I'm lucky, that I got to feel the way I felt if it only lasted a little bit. To love and lost is better than never loving at all. Will I ever have those feelings for some one else? I sure hope so! But is it fair to the other person, to know that who ever I give my heart to next that a piece will be missing? How will I ever stop thinking about this person? How can I live if living is with out you?